Goliath

I’m not sure how many of us can say we have children in our lives who will speak truth over us. I am fortunate to have them. A few weeks ago, my youngest Goddaughter (six years old) asked me what I was afraid of. She has heard me talk about being afraid of clowns. I stopped and thought about it and said snakes. She responded with a question. “Are those your only Goliaths?” I asked her what she meant and she told me that her teacher said that a Goliath is something in our life that is big and scary. Let that sink in.

I’ve thought about this for a few weeks and evaluated my life for other Goliaths. One of the things I thought of was that I struggle with large groups of people. I especially struggle when I have to be vulnerable in this group. I don’t think I see myself the way other people see me . I really struggle with this. So, this is a Goliath for me.

I realize now that my sweet Goddaughter loves me and wants me to be a better person. All three of my Godchildren (and their parents) support me in my journey to be better. I have a great circle of friends and I trust them to encourage me to be better. They hold me accountable. The last 15 months have challenged me to be better and to understand that my journey is about all of us. I have worked so hard to be healthy and change the way I see food. My relationship with food is a Goliath. What if I fail to change the way I see it.

I think the thing I want you to know is my Goddaughter is spot on here. God is bigger than my Goliaths. I am working on leaning into His promises. All of this seems so scary, but it is helping me be a better person!

Be blessed!



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