Changing the way I see it

 Sometimes it is difficult to figure out what you are called to do. I feel strongly that I am supposed to encourage people and love like Christ does. This includes loving myself. I have not always recognized this.

My goal everyday is to be better than I was yesterday. This means that I need to learn from the hard stuff. I have learned a ton about myself in the last 14 months. 

Let’s go back to December of 2022. I weighed around 350 pounds. My size was taking a toll on my joints and back. I couldn’t walk far and standing up for an extended time was not an option. Moving was difficult and my self image was not good. I finally admitted that I had been eating to cover my pain from my mother’s passing.

During this time I had a friend ask if I had ever considered going to a weight loss group. She was very careful with her words. In January of 2023, I went with her and weighed in. I was full of all kinds of emotion. I was scared. I thought more than once about admitting how bad I let myself get. My weight was my fault and I had to deal with that fact. I got on the scale and I cried when I saw the results. I weighed 344.2 pounds.

I went to work to change the way I approached food and had to deal with the feeling that this was going to be so hard for me. The program I had joined was easier than I expected it to be and I had support from my circle of friends. I started dropping weight and felt successful for the first time in a long time.

Looking at myself through God’s eyes plays into my success. I know that I am loved and that my life has purpose. I invite you to join me as I continue to be the best me possible and walk in my calling. I promise to be open and honest about my journey and encourage you to reflect on your spiritual, physical, and emotional health. My identity has been found through Christ’s lens. 

Be blessed and know that you are valuable!

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